Omg. I havent been to work ALL WEEK.
Bleh.
I feel like the biggest bludger on earth.
But you know what, Ive been so effing sick. Le sigh.
Im going to start getting bed sores.
I really need go to back tomorrow. Or I'll have no more sick days left.. til December.
I also need to get fit. I'm all like soft, and gross. I wanna be firm and fit! Like those people who have heaps of energy and don't cry from climbing 2 sets of stairs.
Im contemplating joining Fitness First. But it seems so overated and expensive - and I'll prob never go anyway. Plus how am I meant to get fit and goto uni?
Sometimes it may be better not to relate to a particular song. I never really listened to love songs before, because I didnt really care. But now so many make sense in such a poignant way, I dont know how to process it all. I wish I didnt know in a way. No one wants to be vulnerable because its dark and threatening.
The constant craving for assurance and affirmation but getting something less.
The only want I can describe it is, being extemely hungry and waiting for a big meal, being promised a big meal tomorrow or the day after.. but only being given scraps, sporadically.
Have you ever? (sometimes I wish I hadn't).
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It make you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You cant sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they dont come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
Youd do anything to make them understand
Have you have had someone steal your heart away
Youd give anything to make them fell the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you dont know what to say
And you dont know where to start
Have you ever loved someone so much
Its make you wanna cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You cant sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they dont come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever found the one
Youve dreamed of all your life
Youd do anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one youve given your heart to you
Only to find that one wont give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
What do I gotta do to get to you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
coz baby I cant sleep
Today when you left, you kissed me on the hair.
You dont know this.
But that was one of the greatest moments of my life.
Ive never left so loved and special.
Never stop loving me.
Holy mother of Jesus. Something has totally raped my face, nose, throat and chest. I CANNOT SPEAK. No communicado.. Fucking sigh. I wish I knew sign language.. people keep talking to me, but I can't reply because I have no voice.
When I do speak I sound like a 14 year old boy who has been chain smoking since the age of 12. And my voice crackles, making me sound like a rude bitch or I'm crying. And I keep crying because of my sinus problems.
BLAH. This is sooooo homo. Yeah I'm having a cry, got a problem? Stupid anti-biotics.. fight harder!
I am sick and it feels like death. Or more precisely, the sahara desert has temporarily relocated itsef in my throat/chest area. Consequently, I am coughing up fits of sand that are scratching at my throat with no mercy.
A jellyfish has lodged itself in the space between the back of my nose and brain. There is so much extra pressure and fluid hanging around, my head may possibly explode.. and my eyes and nostils constantly leak this clear slimy liquid. My body keeps having these voilent episodes to try and evict the intruder. No luck.
As you can imagine, I dont feel my best and will throw myself a pity party. I expect visits, chicken soup, flowers and homemade lemonade.
This is the umpteenth time I have been sick this year. It is ONLY April. I hate you immune system. I know you're just laughing at me, waiting for me to crack.
On the other hand. I am a literary mother funking genius, no?
We all know on-line shopping is the devil.
Yes it is.
I still deciding if I should buy the leather jacket from Sports girl for like almost half my weekly pay... I did try it on at the shops and it was soooo pretty and warm. But half my pay? I dont need to eat right?
And I just discovered FCUK also has an online shop.. and I'm already eye-ing a few trenches and dresses.
Le sigh.
I need a money tree, or a high paying sugar daddy. *wink*
Shitty Rail broke my precious white and black stick umbrella today. I hate you. So much. The conductor closed the doors on me, when I wasnt even fully on the train.. and incedentally killed my umbrella that was half open. I dont know if I should fork out $30 for another one.
On a better note, I'm going to a mini road trip to the Entrance on Friday.. We're going to stay the night and BBQ on the beach. And hopefully no one will get arrested and we'll come home safe. LOL.
Want the time to fly by really fast?
Get a full time job. Next thing you know, you'll wake up 30 and fat. Its true.
We spend all week looking forward to the weekend of promised R&R, but before this day arrives - its Monday again. So the weeks roll into one big week, and the years roll together.. and everything just become non disctinct, continuim of mush. What did I do the day before? Who knows.
Sucks.
But if you also want to be able to buy a house and a car and other fancy smanchy stuff - get a full time job.
Totally sucks.
Overheard on the Beach - Where the bloody hell are you?
Miss Manners Says as Long as You Ask First, It's Okay
Queer: That guy sooo just checked you out.
Hot chick: Should I go over there and ask to sit on his face?
Queer: Bianca.
Hot chick: What? I'm horny!
Queer: Me, too, now that I think of it.
--Bondi Beach, Sydney, Australia
Question:
If I eat ALOT of junk food that exceeds 3000kj a day, how fat will I be in a month?
This week I have consumed (on top of my daily meals) 1 packet of BBQ flavoured sakatas, 4 packets of chips, 2 chocolate bars, a slice of cake, and a packet of s&v snakatas.
Keeping in mind, I have also eaten out 4 times this week.. I never skip a meal and eat alot of fruit.
Will it make me bootilicious or bush pig?
